what to do next? i am thinking. it is unluky. or maybe it is some chance to come. i am not afraid. but i am a little worried. there is always another chance. i really believe this. but how soon comes the chance? will it make me wait so long time. i don't have that much to waste. i must earn my living and if it can i must do something to support my father. next month two sister will attend the universty. it is a huge expend. my father has done a lot to support his children. he is old now. i am afraid he is not in a good health. i really want to share the pressure with him. if i can ,i will take the whole pressure in the future. i want my parents to live a good life in the future. i can't depend on my brother. he is not the one who can give my parents a good life.